It has been awhile since the last post. And it may not be appropriate to title it "Healing". I believe the appropriate form should be the past tense. Healed.
There's been a LOT to deal with these past few months. Not just with all of the crap from the big break up, but the cluster of work that had to be done with actual work, "Sound of Music", and the Strawberry Festival.
So an update on all that has happened:
- I am Rolf in SDI's production of "The Sound of Music".
- Tonight is opening night, and I am excited and scared.
- I am possibly the new lead singer of a band called Sundown Audio.
- Strawberry Festival = Nightmare
- I am getting fit as HELL!
I am overwhelmed with all of the work that has been happening. There have been too many things at once and plenty of rough patches along the way. But I'm finally making it to the other side of a very dark tunnel. I am genuinely happy, and do not want it to change.
My job is about to increase my workload by a WHOLE lot, as it will become a full time job where I will operate a CNC machine. My only worry about this new onslaught of work and the new band thing is that I will no longer have time to do as many shows as I want to do, which sucks because I'm excited for Frankenstein and I'm OVERJOYED about the next season, which I can't disclose.
I am still a bit worried that the new job will pay enough to make me live comfortably enough to where I don't need any more college. But the issue with that is, I want to go to college more. I like being a student. But, I guess it's better to have a stable job that pays well, than it is to pay for college tuition and have no direction of what you want out of it.
Oh well. I am happy. I have my worries about the future, but who doesn't.
Most importantly: the reason I am looking up more and more. A very special person. Her name is Gretchen.
I can't not smile when I'm with her. The night the Strawberry Festival ended, I finally stopped lying to myself about how I was feeling and took a leap of faith. Never thought the feelings would be mutual. So though I may be scared of what the future holds, I know that things are great now. And I'm not gonna waste these moments worrying about the future all the time.
